Yesterday I had a very successful day of my fast, it was only the first day.  I have two more to go.  All I had was some fruit in the morning which worried me but thanks to all of you I decided that it would only boost my metabolism.  I am kinda curious to weigh myself but I am not going until I think I have lost a substanial amount of weight.  Until I can tell by looking at myself...I hate to work so hard at a fast and then I only lose like 1 lb, its so crushing.

Today to keep my metabolism up I have had:
1 string cheese - 60 cals.
Grapes - 40 cals.

100 cals isn't bad and I am on my way to the gym after I get some homework done.

How are all you doing?

Lots of love and support to all :)

Current Mood: accomplished

I was doing so good today and then I blew it all.
Roommate made tacos, I had only one but I also had a smironoff.
Already I was at 460 cals. - my max was 500

I am so disappointed with myself, how come I keep doing this?  Seriously why is it so hard to tell myself 'NO' ??

Help me girls, I need some motivation...

Current Mood: frustrated

So I have a wedding to be in on Sept. 16.  I am not going in to get sized cuz' I think it is pointless when i plan on losing a good 20 lbs. before then.  So I will just be calling in my size, once I do it will be crucial that I lose this weight!!!!

I have to do this, How embrassing would it be if I can't fit into my own bridesmaid dress?!?!?!?

Then I will definetly ruined everything and feel like I FAT COW!!!!!

Got stuck going out to lunch.  It wasn't so bad, Applebee's has the weight watchers plan.  It gives the cals. for a few of their meals, ordered the lowest calorie meal, only 365 and it has been the only thing I have eaten all day.  I'm not going to eat anything else so I am sure I will maintain if not lose.


I think I will do some crunches and pushups later, I hate my stomach!!

Today, is so amazing!!!  I had a binge yesterday and didn't have time to workout so I could maintain.  So I was dreading stepping onto the scale this morning, but when I did, it said I losed 3 lbs !!!!!!   Now I am so psyched and motivated to continue not eating for today and then I could lose even more.  
Seriously, 3 lbs. in one day on a binge!!! How many times does that happen?!?!?


Does anyone wear any anorexia support bracelets?? Ya know the red beaded ones with a dragonfly charm on it?  
I was online yesterday, surfing the web and found some, so I bought three different ones.  They have different styles but they all mean the same thing.  I encourage everyone to get one, as a symbol of our silent suffering...  Let me know how you feel about this idea...

Okay, so I feel that I have tried so many diff. types of pills and so far have not yet been completely satisfied. So I am asking, does anyone else take slimming pills? If so, which kinds have worked the best?  I hate that I have to take them, they are like $30 a jar sometimes more.  But I can't make myself throw up, I have no idea why I try and try and never works for me :(